So… I went to court today. The judge just confirmed that the custody and child support will remain exactly as they were filed.

The funniest thing happened though, I ran into an old friend from Garces who was there getting a divorce too. April F. So since we had to be there an HOUR early, we caught up and talked. I have pretty much fallen out of touch with everybody from Garces so it was good to hear that a lot of the old people I knew are doing good.

Well, everything is OUT!!! Woohoo!! It’s clean and empty. I tried THREE times today to give the landlady the key but she was never at the dang office! :<

One chapter has closed and now I’m just ready to start the next…

I opened up the forum for public viewing. I don’t know why. I was bored and was playing around with permission settings and all that good stuff and that’s just how it ended up. heh A friend of Ben’s made some suggestions on how to get some better sleep and I thought I’d open it up so that I could get more. ANY suggestions are welcome. I NEED SLEEP.

Moving is making me insane. All I have left is big stuff and the computer and I need help with that stuff. The computer itself I can move but the 21″ monitor is like BEYOND heavy.

I found out late yesterday that if I have everything out by tomorrow they will knock a weeks rent off and any money I can save right now is great so I’m working my butt off to try and get it done. And with that, I’m off to make another load.

I have to say that Cameron has been a HUGE help the last few days. He’s worked his butt off running up and down the stairs for me and has not complained a single time. I could not have gotten nearly as much done if it had not been for his help.

With that said, I am now going to go pass out on the couch. I’m exhausted.

Moving… sucks.

The apartment that I’m leaving is upstairs. The parking lot is around the corner and about 30 yards away. I’ve never really seen that as a problem till now. One trip to the car after another after another after another.

I hurt my knee awhile ago. The left tendon on the back of my left knee starts to ache a little after taking the stairs a few times. After taking the stairs 20+ times for two days in a row and it ache’s a lot more than a little. :<

But… I’m well over half done. Just the big stuff left.

*sigh*

And off I go to move more.

I had one of those ’self actualizaton’ moments yesterday. I had become *really* unmotivated and pretty depressed the last week or two. Then yesterday after a long talk with Amber and my mom I’m feeling a lot better.

Then I talked to Ben for quite awhile last night and we talked about an actual date to move up there… jobs… school for Cassidy. He really made me remember all the reasons that this move is going to be so wonderful for my life. I haven’t seen him in almost two weeks and probaby won’t get to see him this weekend because I’ll be really busy cleaning all the apartement for the walk through. But everything I am doing right now, moving out of the apt, throwing away all the stuff from what feels like a past life, is bringing me one step closer to him. And that excites me.

So this morning I woke up with a whole new motivation. Threw away three more bags of stuff and packed more stuff. Tomorrow I’ll get to use my moms car so I’ll be able to start actually moving stuff out. I’m on a roll now. Motivated, driven, excited.

San Jose here I come.

Sometimes the littlest things amuse me. HA!

I *hate* not being able to fall asleep at night… Somebody tell me how to fall asleep!

Man… Ben was really, really, really sick this weekend. Bad headache, threw up… He had whatever nasty bug it was that Cassidy had a few weeks ago. I felt so helpless. I wanted to make him feel better but figured the best thing to do was leave him alone and let him get some rest.

So I helped my mom grout the tile in Camerons room and the front room. And that was WAY more work than I thought I was getting myself into. So Sunday we went to eat breakafast with my mom and just laid around and I tried to do whatever I could to make Ben feel better.

Well, June 19th seems to be the soonest date for court. I’d like to be able to do it sooner but as long as I can see it in the near future I’m not going to complain.

Going to help my mom lay tile this weekend. Can you feel the excitement? Really though, it wasn’t that bad last weekend and now that it’s going down it’s looking pretty good. She seems excited about it so I don’t mind helping her out.

My poor Ben is sick. Don’t know if I’ll get to see him or not this weekend. I miss him like mad but I hate to think of him on the road when he’s not feeling well. We’ll see.

Have a good weekend everybody!