Debate

I hope everybody watched the debate tonight. If you didn’t see it you will have two more chances before the final vote. Make it a point to catch at least one of them. You owe it to your children, parents, friends, etc to make an informed decision.

I’m sure you can tell who I’m voting for!!

And do your part. VOTE! VOTE!! VOTE!!!

Withdrawl

Anybody that tells you that Zoloft is not addicting and that you’ll suffer no withdrawl effects is an *F word* liar.

Cold sweats and headaches so far. Like REALLY BAD headaches. Like I had to stay home from work today. I hate missing work for any reason. I just, don’t do it. I go to work with the flu untill I pass out at my desk for Christ’s sake.

Ugh. It was my decision to quit cold turkey rather than lessen the does gradually because that would have taken two months to do. And after all the rading I’ve been doing, that process is not really any better… just longer.

Pray for Benjamin.

(Warning:In an attempt to help some other people fighting depression I’ve decided to be very open about my struggle with it. This post contains words like ‘sex’ and ‘hell’ (but no ‘shits’!!). You have been warned. (Daddy, I swear I’ve never had sex. EVER!! ).)

When I first started taking the Zoloft there were some minor side-effects. At first it made me REALLY tired so I had to take it at night. Then as it got into my system that stopped so I was then able to start taking it in the morning. And that was it. I was really relieved.

I’m now months into it and it’s become very apparent to me and to Ben that there is one other, often untalked about side-effect that I’m most certainly experiencing… A side-effect of the sexual kind. Like any word containing the letter s, e or x in it that order have dropped completely out of my life.

I’m 26 years old. Not even THINKING about it is just not right. And poor Ben… he’s a male you know, so he thinks about it. SO I had an appointment today to see what can be done about the s, e and the x.

I have to stop taking the Zoloft. The Dr is going to do some hormone testing that should have been done before I even started taking the damn things in the first place. So, as of tomorrow, I’m off the Zoloft. I have to be off of it for at least a week before the test and longer before I can starte taking a new drug. I’m off the Zoloft. OH MY GOD WHAT THE HELL IS THIS DOCTOR THINKING TAKING ME OFF THE ZOLOFT.

*startes to shake a little*

Work out she says. Gets lots of sleep she says. Do anything I can to produce extra ceratonin she says. Well, I need the Zoloft to sleep, I need the Zoloft for motivation to work out, I need the Zoloft to BREATHE!

It’s only a week. I can do a week right! RIGHT!?

But hey, the plus side is that, you know… there will be s’s, e’s and x’s.

*fidgets*

shit shit shit

I used my Windowns calandar here at work which is a YEAR OFF AND THE SYS ADMINS HAVE ME LOCKED OUT OF CHANGING THE GODDAMN DATE (WTF?!) to set the date for Cassidy’s birthday party at Chuck E Cheeses. This morning I realized that the 4th is a MONDAY, not a SUNDAY. So I sent out invitations for a MONDAY at 1:00PM. FUCKING HELL!

So tomorrow (no school today) I’m going to send the parents letters telling them that it’s been changed to Sunday ay 3:00PM and hope to God that some of the kids can make it.

I’m a horrible, horrible, horrible mommy.

Accomplishments:

What do I have to show for the weekend? Hmm…

I leveled my primary City of Heroes character to 22. Started a new one that’s an archtype and power combination that I’ve wanted to try for awhile to level 8. Did 5 loads of laundry. Watched all three Star Wars movies (Episodes 4, 5 & 6) with Cassidy. She’s all Star Wars fanatic right now. Mini Geek.

Ummmm… let’s see. Yeah, that’s about it. Back to the grind tomorrow.

*yoda* The grind at 4:30am tomorrow starts. Off to bed with me I am. */yoda*

Mmmmm

Something fantactic was born in the Hirsch-Reid-Stacy house last night. And it was loved by all in the land.

Mmm Mmm Good