A tear shed can say more than a hundred words spoken.

Ben was not going to come down this weekend but after this conversation he surprised me and showed up at 1:30am this morning:

[21:13] Antigone: Hi
[21:13] MPower: hi (blush)
[21:14] Antigone: How ya doin?
[21:14] MPower: I got a little sun burned toady
[21:14] MPower: today
[21:14] Antigone: Did you have the top down?
[21:14] MPower: yeah
[21:14] MPower: ..and..missing you
[21:14] Antigone: Sounds nice…
[21:14] Antigone: I miss you too…
[21:15] MPower: I almost got in the car after we ate and drove down I missed you so much
[21:16] Antigone: I miss you too, Ben… a lot.

It was really nice to have him here today. As I speak he is laying on the couch and Cassidy is laying with him giving him grooming tips. I had resigned myself to the fact that I was not going to get to see him this weekend so him showing up was a great surprise. I was dreading having to spend Easter alone but I understand the fact that it’s getting hard financially to keep making this trip. As well as the fact that he’s really getting tired of haing to drive 500 miles a week to see me. Hopefully I can get the coolant problem fixed on my car and start making the trip up to see him more often.

Anyway, we just hung out at home all day. Cassidy has eaten candy, played with her Easter Basket stuff (bubbles, stickers, hair things, light up pens…) eaten candy, went to the grocery store with me, ate some candy… Did I mention that she ate some candy? I hope she gets to bed before 11! heh

HAPPY EASTER ALL!

When somebody you are close to loses somebody that was important to them, you are forced to confront the fragility of life.

I realized something not long ago. It seems as if the most spiritual people are taken from the Earth first.

My grandma believed with all her heart that there was a wonderful life waiting for her on the other side and she died rather young. HER belief helped me get though that.

The same thing happened when Ada died. She was also one of the most spiritually grounded people I know. Days before she died she told me, ‘Don’t be sad for me, Anna. I’m in pain, I want to go, I’m ready. I’m going to the place where there is no pain, there is no strife, there is only love.’ While her death was hard, like my grandma, she believed that she was truely going to a better place. That belief helped me once again.

Kynan lost is grandma today. Cassidy and I will say a prayer tonight for Kynan, Julie, Trey, and the rest of Kynan’s family.

Stress is really not good for you. At all.

I need to get more sleep at night. By about 3:00p.m. I am so tired I can hardly stand it. The problem is that if I lay on the couch at night, I just DON’T fall asleep. I try and try and it does not come till the wee hours of the morning. 2-3ish… sometimes later. Then I wake up at 5 and just can’t go back to sleep. *sigh*

MY tummy has also been WAY upset for a week now. It sucked because it started last weekend. Ben was here and I was pretty much crappy company for two days because I just felt horrid. I had to stay home Tuesday because I woke up and immediately started to throw up. I might have had the flu bug that my mom was talking about but I know that last weekend and today, it was not the bug. The stress is literally making me physically ill.

I have to figure out some way to make myself better agian. Someway to stop the physical effects this stress is having on me… Any suggestions are welcome.

Email suggestions here.

New template. If you know me you know of my love for the daisy. If not just ask to see my tatoo sometime.

Anyway, I’ll get some kind of a welcome page up in the next week or so. I’ve been really busy and sick lately so I’m doing the best I can.

Well, I pick up the divorce papers tomorrow so that Troy can be served. In California your divorce is final exactly six months after a spouse is served. So in six months, I’ll be Anna Reid again. *huge sigh of relief*